Anaithlos

2003-10-18T21:24:00.000-05:00

I wrote a couple of new poems. They can be seen on blogger and xanga. I also created blogring at xanga called the religion challenged. It's for those who don't know what they should believe in and are looking for something to help them.

2003-10-15T16:03:00.000-05:00

I made a new site at xanga, and that is where I will be posting the majority of the things I have to say from now on. I will still update this page every so often. And the other sites at blogger will remain the primary pages for those subjects.

2003-10-09T19:48:00.000-05:00

Started with Oil Pastels yesterday. They're not my favorite media. But they're okay. Finished printing and mounting the texture assignment yesterday. Started reflection today. The matrix test in Algebra wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Tomorrow I have a test in German II, Yay! Not.. I hope this weekend is just as good as last if not better. Today I just wanted to fake sick and stay home, but I didn't. Started another weblog type thing. Anubis.blogdot.org. Not much else I want to say...

2003-10-02T20:18:00.000-05:00

This whole week has seemed to pass by slowly. For photography our assignment is reflection. Finished paper bag drawing in drawing class. For spirt week we are (the Juniors) one point behind the Seniors! We need everyone to wear school colors to beat them. If we win, we get to have a picnic for the entire class. I don't care about that though, I just want to win. Received a new modem, hopefully this won't go out near as often as the older one did. Had to write a paper in A.P. Communication Arts III. The Junior class T-Shirts arrived yesterday. They look awful, I'm glad I didn't buy one. I hope next week will be better than this week. Dropped off Alyson's application and resume at Price Chopper. Currently in Philosophy, we are watching Spirited Away, so far, it's good, I like it. I can't wait until this weekend to just shoot photos and hopefully relax most of the time.

2003-09-25T20:15:00.000-05:00

Yay! The internet is finally back up! Tuesday I finally bought Billy Talent's CD, but they had it under T even though since it's a group it should be under B. Made my first actual print in photo I today. I hope I did everything correctly. Presented the topic of Ethics in philosophy Monday, and not to much of my surprise, I did about 97% of the work. Got progress reports and I actually have a better score or grade in A.P. Com. Arts III than I thought I had. Finished one point perspective drawing and I noticed that one of the lines is slanted, but I don't want to go back and try to straighten it out. First assigment for photo is texture, and I have the whole weekend to shoot. But I need to remember to get film from my locker in the photo room. I think photo is becoming my favorite art class. My some new friends, well, wouldn't exactly call them friends, but people I'm willing to talk to and at the same time willing to talk to me. Visited my step niece in Oklahoma. I hope this weekend is better than I am expecting. It's supposed to be cold so I guess I should bring a jacket whenever I shoot. Got a new edition Magic the Gathering cards. I rather like the new layout. I was almost late to 6th hour because of my print I did, but because I am rather quick without running, I made it just a few seconds before the bell rang. Although I didn't think I would make it.^-^ Doodled some more and yet again the doodle is better than a drawing I do when I concentrate. Not much else I can remember.

2003-09-05T22:34:00.000-05:00

Today was yet again boring, except for 1st, and 7th hour. They were okay. I enjoyed Philosophy most though, but, that's to be expected. Bought two CD's yesterday. 311-Evolver, and P.O.D-Snuff The Punk. Both good CD's. But I still want Marcato's CD, it's been a little over four months since I ordered it now... Oh, it's much cooler now, Yay! But... now I have to deal with allergies. I was hoping to see The Order today, but it didn't happen. Maybe another day... I think tomorrow I'll end up driving Alyson to a lot of places. I don't know if I'll actually be active in the Husky Hooligans this year, maybe next year... I was thinking of starting a club to clean up the school campus. But I don't know what to call it.

2003-08-29T17:51:00.000-05:00

I really like Philosophy. I wish I had it all day, each time the class seems too short. Got out of school early today ^-^ No school Monday! Yay! Wrote a poem wednesday night. I plan on posting it shortly. I also have another quote to post.

2003-08-24T19:00:00.000-05:00

Bought new things for my room, the theme is becoming oriental with a bit of western ideas combined with it. I think it will be pretty cool. I don't want tomorrow to come, I don't want to go back to school. This weekend has been so short to me. Kim is coming tomorrow but I still don't want it to come. I actually didn't procrastinate...hmmm... must be a fluke^-^ I hope this week will be better overall though. I wish it wasn't so hot outside. Added a test result. Watching Apollo 13 right now. Thinking about joining the Husky Hooligans. But not sure, I think I mighty talk to Mr. Smithyman Thursday befoer school, but that probably won't happen since I am thinking about it. I never seem to do anything when I think about, it's always on a spur of the moment when I do things.

2003-08-19T19:31:00.000-05:00

Saw Freddy vs. Jason Wednesday. It was pretty good I thought. Today is the last day of freedom.. NOOoooo! Oh well.. Hopefully it won't be too bad. Can't wait until Billy Talent's CD comes out. I'm gonna buy it as soon as possible. Bought Dynasty Warriors 4 today pretty good game. I'll have to update my Christmas list..... I know it's pretty early to have one but.... there are so many things I want to make sure I remember for when Christmas is closer. I hope I can get my parking permit for school in the morning if possible so I won't have to deal with the lunch crowd when they would be giving them out. Not much else. Until tomorrow....

2003-08-15T14:40:00.000-05:00

Four more days until school starts... Still have yet to recieve the CD. I don't know if it will ever come... oh well, at least it was only six dollars. Saw Freaky Friday the day after it came out. Next up... Freddy Vs. Jason! Go Jason! Lesser of two evils! Filled up the gas tank by myself for the first time yesterday. I actually didn't screw up! Yay! ^-^ I had to follow mom home Wednesday because her car was at the shop. What I didn't like about this was that even though it was raining outside she went ten over the speed limit! I would've gone 5 under since the road was wet, but I didn't want to lose her. Okay, not much else except I added another quote. Later.

2003-08-01T10:44:00.000-05:00

I got my driver's license yesterday!! ^-^ Now I can drive without having mom or Art in the car with me. Both tuesday and wednesday the internet was down yet again....*sigh*....but at least it's back up. On monday I had used my tarot cards to see what the day was going to be like.... then, I checked my Astrology.com daily horoscope and it had the same message... freaky... I can't wait until school starts to see what my classes will be like. But I can also wait because I might, or more like probably (with my luck) will have someone I don't like in each class. Over the weekend we saw "Seabiscuit" it was pretty good I think. It actually almost made me cry a few times. Note** ALMOST, I was able to keep them back ^-^

2003-07-26T20:11:00.000-05:00

I got my hair cut today. Two inches were taken off. I also now have less than 5 hours to dirve before I take the test. I don't think I am ready, but everyone seems to think otherwise. We saw 'The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen" Monday. It was good. I really liked Dorian Gray, even though he was evil. They finally finished the house, and yesterday I got my new furniture... yay! Alyson colored her hair, it is now kind of a light brown. I think it looks good. Still waiting for Marcato's CD.... whe will it come? It seems like it's been longer than three months since I ordered it. I know I ordered it by mail, and not online or over the phone, and that the band is probably busy with other things... but I realy want the CD. I don't know how much longer I can wait. I really want the CD. Right now I can only listen to two of their songs on the CD I have ordered... I also bought Naked Empire by Terry Goodkind and a tarot deck, the Thoth, it is the only one I have found that seems to stand out to me.. I also made a little packet with different spreads that I saw and liked so I can learn and memorize them. I saw, yet again, "Pirates of the Carribean: Curse of the Black Pearl". My older sister hadn't seen it so we saw it while she was down here. But it was even better because I could see things I hadn't noticed before. I can't wait until Monday to come, maybe I can finally sleep in and regain some of the sleep I have been losing...

2003-07-20T21:35:00.000-05:00

Saturday I bought The Ataris CD "So Long, Astoria". I really like it. I also bought a book called Egyptian Mythology and The Book of the Dead translated into English. I also had to spend the day with my dad. He wasn't too pleasant. Still haven't received Marcato's CD...*sigh* I wish it were here already. Kim has arrived. Can't wait until we go to the plaza tomorrow. I'm getting new furniture for my room! Yay! It's pretty cool in my opinion. It won't be here until Friday I think. I also learned that the front door is going to be taken off yet again to try to fix the paint job that was done on it. The first two times weren't very good. Hope they do it right this time. Some time last week we found we accidentally left a Blockbuster game in the XBox and had one of our games in the Blockbuster case.... Our mom said we could just keep it because we don't even remember which Blockbuster it was which we rented it from, seeing as we rented from different ones after we rented the game and took it back. Going to see "The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen" either tomorrow or Tuesday.

2003-07-15T13:35:00.000-05:00

I finally received my schedule. I am in A.P. Communication Arts III, but.... I have Fabiano, I don't really care for him. These are the classes I am taking first semester:
U.S. History in the 20th Century
Drawing I
German II
Photography I
A.P. Communication Arts III
Algebra II
Philosophy
Second semester I have:
U.S. History in the 20th Century
Speech I
German II
Drawing II
A.P. Communication Arts III
Algebra II
Ceramics.
I saw "Pirates of the Carribean: The Curse of the Black Pearl" the day it came out, it was awesome. I love how they combined comedy with action/adventure. It even bumped "K-19: The Widowmaker" down to second, in turn making "The Lord of The Rings" movies third. I still have yet to receive Marcato's CD. I bought Linkin Park's CD Reanimation, along with Audioslave's self titled CD. My favorite song on Reanimation is "MY DSMBR" (My December). It's a bit different from their other songs. But, I still enjoy all their songs. In fact, my favorite on Meteora is "Faint".

2003-07-04T21:56:00.000-05:00

On the 30th, I sketched something, and everyone thought it was something it wasn't, they didn't seem to notice the wings, I guess it wasn't that good, even though afterwards they said it was. Still waiting for Marcato's CD and my school schedule.... Finally played Brute Force, it's pretty good, also played a demo of Tao Feng, Fist of the Lotus. It is also good. Alyson wants it. Less than an week for Pirates of The Carribean, The Curse of the Black Pearl!! I can't wait! If I don't see it the first day it comes out I will be very disappointed, I really(x10) want to see it!!! They seem to be finished with the house and the liquid siding, but my parents aren't too impressed, and they aren't going to pay them until it is done right. I was yet again behind today on reading, but I caught up, all 100 pages in less than 3 hours! ^-^ So I am now caught up and hope to no longer fall behind..... But I'm not too sure If I can keep that. This week all in all hasn't too bad, but my mother has really nagged me more than ever... or at least it seems. If I didn't have Linkin Park to listen to, I don't know what I would do... they really help me relieve my stress. Not much else^-^

2003-06-29T19:08:00.000-05:00

Yesterday Alyson and I received a Cell Phone. And now our whole family has one plan which lets us call each other basically for free. I am behind the reading schedule but I plan to be up to speed by tomorrow. The streetcult contest ends tomorrow, and big surprise, I won't win! but that's okay, I only posted when I had the time, which wasn't much. Yesterday we rented The Hot Chick and Sorority Boys, We actually watched both yesterday. We also rented Brute Force for XBox, but haven't played it yet. I hope it's as good as it looks! Just a few minutes ago I watched Darkness Falls yet again, I didn't want to but I felt guilty because Alyson kept mentioning how no one else was going to watch it with her, so... I did, hopefully it's the last time I have to watch it ever again. I can't wait until we get our schedule's so I know what teachers I have and which class periods. Because I already know which classes I am going to take, I just can't remember what hours they were, and I never knew which teacher, except for German II, there's only one German teacher, so that's not hard to guess. This month has seemed to me to have gone by extremely slowly. I guess because I haven't had as much social interaction as I would like... I added quotes to my quote page, my favorite is "My starkest madness seeming is divinest sense. Come! Grasp the chain, and prove you're sane!". I don't know why, but i really like it, maybe it's the word choice, or the flow, or the concept behind it..... I'm not sure.

2003-06-26T22:20:00.000-05:00

Today I did some chores around the house, and yesterday I found out that Alyson has been reading ahead. I don't mind but I would have appreciated it if she had told me that she was doing so. I am just following the schedule. I learned that my father believes Alyson is practicing black magic and I am practicing white. Which is false, because neither Alyson nor I practice any magic whatsoever. I also learned that my father apparently cares more for his work than his family. Which isn't much of a surprise to me. but I now have it confirmed. I have been really bored here.... no one to talk to but Alyson. I e-mail Kim, but it isn't the same as talking, whether it's on the phone or in person. I feel cooped up because the guys who are working on our house are actually coming each day, and I feel very uncomfortable going outside while they are here. I have e-mailed Mike but he hasn't acknowledged my new e-mails.... So I only really have Kim and Alyson to talk to... with the exception of my parents. I now have less than 10 hours total which I need to make up for the 50 hour requirement. A new contest from Streetcult has begun, but I know I am not going to win beause it goes to whoever posts the most messages on message boards which are listed on Streetcult's website for Dust to Dust. But that's okay, I didn't join to win things from the band. I joined to help spread the word about them whenever time allowed. I opened the booster packs the day after I bought them and I found that one contained Nightmare! I had always wanted it since I knew it existed, and now I finally have it. I will never sell it, along with my Norwood Archers. Although those two cards are really the only ones I would never sell. Well, that's it for now... besides the fact that I am totally bereft of much social interactment. And I added some test results!

2003-06-22T23:10:00.000-05:00

Bought Linkin Park's CD Meteora, it's even better than I expected^-^. I also bought some Magic The Gathering Booster Packs. I now have over ten hours of nighttime driving and I need less than 19 hours to drive before I take the driving portion to obtain a restricted license and not a permit. But I really don't want to take the test. Everyone but me is getting excited about it.... I just have this feeling I will fail... Added more blogs to the blog page. Hope they're good. I also bought a book which is part of the Celestine Prophecy. I don't know much about it, but my sister does. She's read every book but this one. I don't know why she likes it. I guess sooner or later I'll have to read it to find out what makes it so special, as she says, a great book with great insights. I have also begun to become more interested in mythical creatures. I want to learn more about them and how they became feared even tohugh they do not exist. I find them very interesting, I also think studying them will help me understand humans even better and get to know why these creatures were made up in the first place. I hope to find out more through trusted authors on such things and maybe, a few people in person... Still waiting for Marcato's CD *sigh* I really want it but I have to wait, be more patient.. Tomorrow is Monday.. that means the parents are gone^-^ time to myself and riddance of nagging and reminding every 5 minutes... freedom... If for once something exciting happens in my life It will be better than these posts!^-^

2003-06-19T21:11:00.000-05:00

Yesterday I got new arch wires for my braces. They didn't hurt much at first, even though they were tighter than I've felt for a while. But as the day progressed the pain got worse. And this morning was horrible. But it seems to have faded, hopefully it will be much better by tomorrow. I made a few blogs of my own, and put them on my tripod domain. Hope they're okay^-^. Thinking about calling Sarah Mikelson to see if she wants to do anything because I haven't done a lot of social stuff thus far in the summer. Maybe we'll see a movie or go to WOF. Dunno. I guess I'll see tomorrow. Added some test results. Whilst playing Morrowind today, I finally found the headquarters of the Morag Tong Guild. And I am now a proud member. I get to kill certain people and use a writ to avoid fines or jail. But of course I'm not just a member to kill. I also think Morag Tong is an honorable guild even though they perform executions. Anyone else who played would understand I'm sure. Not much else.

2003-06-15T09:09:00.000-05:00

Went to see Dumb and Dumberer yesterday. It was okay. Decided to let them publish my poem, but I'll need to send it the verification quickly because I recieved the letter about a week ago... hope it gets to them in time. Still waiting for Marcato's CD. Received our bikes, but they were really dirty and the tires needed air badly. We fixed that though. And although we already had helmets we definitely needed new ones. So I have a new one but Alyson hasn't found one she likes yet. She did, however buy a new CD and gloves for riding. I think she needs to work on saving money instead of spending it as soon as she sees something she remotely likes. Not much else I want to say..

2003-06-12T13:33:00.000-05:00

Just posted a new poem and test result. Taking a day off from reading, ( I am a bit ahead, so I thought, why not take a break?^-^) That's all. Later.

2003-06-11T21:31:00.000-05:00

A few things I want to say.. Poetry.com, or The International Library of Poetry has asked me if they could publish my poem Emotions Astir. I want to let them, but I know for a fact that my mother would say "they're just trying to make money", because I would also want to purchase the book to see my poem published. I know they actually publish poems, because this has happened once before, and I bought the book, and my poem was in it. But I don't know what I should do. I wish someone could help me make a decision... Also, I was one of the winners on my street team for Dust to Dust to win a few things. Which I think is pretty cool, because I don't win things very often. Which I actually think is a good thing. That way I don't get full of myself and think I'll win practically everything.^-^ Bought summer reading books last Sunday. I am on chapter five of Slaughterhouse Five by Kurt Vonnegut. So far I don't care for it... the other two books are The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood, and The Professor and the Madman by Simon Winchester. I hope I get them all done so I will have some free time to play games and do other stuff besides reading, and taking notes on the books, which I'm sure won't be that hard, but you never know! Well not much else, except my mom and my sister have both been pressuring me to drive more to get enough hours to take the driving test to obtain my official license. I also managed to get my sister to do something beneficial to her health outside. I asked her if she wanted to go jogging and she said sure, but she ended up roller blading, which is fine with me because she was still doing something good for her health. Which she rarely does. Going to attempt to get our bikes from my father this weekend, but I don't know how it will turn out. Truth be told, I am actually a bit scared to go over there and see him.... Well, not much else. Got to go.

2003-06-06T21:40:00.000-05:00

We're finally coming back tomorrow. Yay! I bought a few other things. One cup that has Grumpy on it and says "Hasn't smiled since 1937". Went to the Olive Garden and played miniature golf. During this trip I realized just how great Kansas's weather is compared to Florida's. I also realized that I much prefer to live be around mountains than plains or the ocean. Because out of every place I been to, whenever I'm around mountains I'm happier. I would babble on, more I need to go to slepp, and my mother wants me to get off the computer. So, I'll be babblin' later.^-^

2003-06-01T21:16:00.000-05:00

Still in Orlando. Each day has been busy. Finally was able to check my e-mail. Alyson has mainly taken pictures of birds. Went to Epcot and Magic Kingdom today and Disney's MGM Studios and Epcot. Each day but Friday I went swimming. Though I didn't enjoy it too much. Bothtimes there were a bunch of kids and uncourteous people. But oh well. Bought a T-shirt that has all seven dwarves. And under each, it says sleepy, and on the back it says "would the real Sleepy please stand up" a spin off from Eminem's song. I like it, it is quite funny. Not much else.

2003-05-27T22:39:00.000-05:00

Tomorrow finals start...*sigh* Well, at least two of the three I am taking won't be too hard. Kim came over today. Alyson gave me her extra Sing the Sorrow CD. She also babbled about how Adeeb touched her on the shoulder. I don't think that's that big of a deal as she made it out to be. But that could just be me. Found out that Daley is also taking AP Com. Arts III. Along with Lynn and Nikki. I also found out that we are going to have to get up at about 5:00 a.m. Friday to make sure we make the plane for Florida. Hopefully I can take my tech. lit final after school tomorrow. So it would actually be four tests. Finally showed Mike my Magic the Gathering Cards. I kept meaning to show them to him but I would end up talking to him while he sat next to me and forget or just plain forget. I am doubtful I will receive Marcato's CD before we leave. Even though I really want it. I'll just have to wait. Well, the good thing about finals is that after you take it, for that class, you don't have to be in that class again. Well, unless you fail the class, which I am not in any^-^ Had Alyson give Dimitry some promotional materials for Dust to Dust because I thought if he likes Linkin Park he might like Dust to Dust. But of course, there is no way I could really know if he liked Dust to Dust unless I were to receive feedback. Alyson and I were locked out of our house when we got home after school. Apparently, since Alyson and I are now living with our Mother full time, he has changed both the locks and combination for the garage. Which I think is quite low. I would never do that to any of my children if a similar situation were to happen (when and if I had any). Well, I am getting tired so till later!

2003-05-26T21:01:00.000-05:00

I was just thinking about why I seem to be a bit depressed. Lately my parents have been much more demanding than they usually are (not like they weren't pretty demanding already), and I am someone who is laid back, although people may not see it, it's because I have to act that way to please my parents. If I could be who I really feel I don't think I would feel as bad as I do. But sadly I can not. I feel I need to be aorund someone else who is laid back so I could feel better, but I don't know anyone who is really laid back, besides Andy Daley. I mean I know others, but they aren't always laid back whenever I see them. Andy is, but I am not his friend so it's a dilemma. I just wish someone who was my friend at least seemed to be laid back and not uptight whenever I saw them. Not just on occassion but all the time. Well, just a thought I had which I wanted to put down.

2003-05-26T20:45:00.000-05:00

Watched The Hot Chick on DVD today. Pretty good movie. Cleaned out my notebook, it's much thinner now. When Alyson was trying on shorts, I noticed that I need to exercise more than I do. I want to but I don't want to by myself, it isn't as fun if it's just me and no one else around. But even though that's the case, I am going to see if I can't motivate myself to exercise alone. Since this was a three day weekend, I tried to get more sleep, but it's like my body only wants 6 hours of sleep each night. I'll go to bed and about 4 hours later I'll wake up. I'll then go back to sleep only to wake up about 2 hours later. I don't know what's wrong with me. My body just does that. Well, so far only one person has signed my guestbook... Maybe later someone else will sing it. If not, oh well. I learned that Dimitry likes Linkin Park today, my sister told me when Somewhere I Belong came on. I didn't know that, that's cool though I like them too, but I haven't been able to buy their Meteora or Reanimation CD's yet. But I hope to soon. I really hope I will receive Marcato's CD soon. I am anxious. But I have to be patient. Right now I am bored out of my mind. There is no one to talk to around here. I guess I'll just listen to one of my CD's.

2003-05-26T10:29:00.000-05:00

Just signed up with Quarashi's street team. It's about time they got one! I have waited over a year for them to have an official street team. I am so glad they have one. Now it will be easier to promote them^-^ Well, just wanted to add that.

2003-05-26T10:14:00.000-05:00

Yesterday I learned that supposedly everyone is going to have summer reading this year even if they aren't enrolled in an honors com. arts class, for upcoming juniors. I haven't received a list of what books I am to read though. This weekend is so much better than last. I got through the nagging and annoying reminders of things I already do. My mother is freaking out yet again because she is afraid we can't take our finals early. Which, we can. We're leaving this Friday to go to Disney World and we have finals that day. I have been trying to tell her it's okay, but it doesn't seem to work. She learned that Mrs. Elkins is having the final on quia and we can take it two times, Elkins will then take the better of the two scores, and because it is online we can take it early, so she isn't worried about that, but she is still freaked out about my Tech. Lit final, which yet again mom, yes, I can take it early. Besides, it's Mr. LeCount, no worries there about being able to take it early. I just wish she would relax, and trust both Alyson and I when we say it is going to be okay. Kim is going to pick us up after school on the 28th I think or maybe it's the 29th. I'll have to check. I wish my parents had to go to work. Then I could relax and not hear nagging all the time. I am thinking about writing a new poem, but I haven't had enough inspiration all at once to come up with it. I feel though, that I will end up writing it once summer starts, or the day we leave for vacation. I really don't know though. I can't wait to take Philosophy next year. I hope some of my friends will be taking it also. I would make it all the more enjoyable. Well, not much else. Later!

2003-05-24T19:57:00.000-05:00

I know I need to start writing optimistic poems. But I haven't seemed to have the inspiration, and when I have, it was only for a brief moment, not long enough to write down anything that would comprise a poem. But I feel that soon, I will be able to write better pems, even if they're not that great,at least they won't be so depressing. This week has gone by so quickly, it feels like the first few days of May were only a couple of days ago. I think it's because I have had more social interaction with people I feel comfortable around. Namely Mike, Dmitry, Brittney, and sorta Kyle. He's funny, but not someone I want as a total friend, I think he is just a little too immature. I also feel I can't trust him as much as the others. I know that isn't a lot of people but I would venture to say we have fun. Yet again I have rambled. Just wanted to put these thoughts down.^-^

2003-05-23T21:33:00.000-05:00

Mike gave me a card just out of the blue. I think that was very nice of him. No one has ever done that for me, so I appreciate it all the more. We started watching the Natural in my fifth hour and had a shortened lunch time, but we didn't get to see the whole thing. I doubt we will, but at least we have now seen the equivalent of two movies in that class. We had a sub in tech lit. Actually two, the first was a real witch, the second was okay but I still didn't care for her. Received more promotional material for Dust to Dust. I just wish it was Marcato's CD, I sent an order ten days ago, I know it will take awhile, but I am anxious. I actually learned HTML I didn't know, but it was from fiddling around with code myself... not from tech lit. Updated pic page. I finally have a pic of David Walsh, the lead guitarist from The Exies^-^. I can't believe how far Mike has progressed through silver, it takes me much longer to get to where he is. Probably because I always make sure I can take out the gym leader in my first try without too much doubt. I don't know, I just need that sense of security I guess. Alyson has become engrossed with word search, and if I haven't already mentioned, she joined the church of havok. A church that, sadly worships a human being. the 700+ people, I say, need to snap back into reality. Davey Havok is just a human, just like anyone, and everyone else, he is NOT, I repeat NOT a God, unlike what some claim to say. Even Alyson says he's a God, which concerns me. I need someone else to talk to who will talk in reality's terms. I feel like I'm losing it when I talk to her. Thank goodness for Brittney, Mike, and Dmitry, they help me keep form losing it. And I thank them for it, even though they don't know it. Heh..Thanks, hehe, like any of them know about this page except Mike, and I don't even know if he visits. Well, Gonna go off to do somethin' else.Don't forget to check out my sister's site, even though it is plastered with pictures and not even organized, grrr.... she does have one actual post, at the very end. Toodles!

2003-05-22T21:16:00.000-05:00

Today I am feeling much better. Thank goodness. Sat with Mike, Dmitry, Kyle, Benno, and...*sigh*, unfortunately Jeniffer. But overall, lunch was pretty good, everyone else negated Jeniffers negative impact on me, if not for them, I do not know what I would have done. I can't believe Clay didn't win. I have never heard a bad performance by Clay, and yet I have from Rueben, now, how does that work out? Oh well... I shouldn't make that big of a deal out of it. I'm just dissapointed that America didn't use their music sense to vote. I actually don't want school to end. I am actually making good friends. Or at least I think I am, they don't seem to care about what I own or how much money my family has, unlike past friends. And they don't, or haven't yet, taken advantage of me. But maybe I can keep in touch with a few of them and next year will be better. I certainly hope so. I still need a hug, just because I feel I am overdue for one. I don't care what other people think about this flaw I have, it's just something that makes me feel soo much better, if I go awhile without a hug, I just don't feel like myself, but lately I haven't been receiving good "vibes" from my family, and I wouldn't feel comfortable giving them a hug. I wouldn't mind hugging my older sister or Dan, her husband or any of Dan's family members, they just seem like they are giving good "vibes" along with my friends, but I don't know how they would feel if I gave them a hug... Anyway, off that subject. I avoided having to do the oral part of my German final today, but I will have to do it on Tuesday. But that's fine with me. And, instead of coming on the 29th, Kim is coming on the 28th, and apparently, she is already packed for Disney World. I can't believe it though. I mean, we're leaving on the 30th and it's only the 22nd. Not much else, just an update.

2003-05-21T20:12:00.000-05:00

Right now I just feel like crying. I need a hug right now, but there is no one to hug that I feel will make me feel better. I am so stressed out from my parents. They told me to do something at least 5 times within 15 minutes. And they were telling me to do something that didn't need to be done until about 2 hours later than right now. I just feel they underestimate me so many times. I don't know if anyone appreciates what I do for them, at least family. I'm always giving up my time to do what they want me to do, or what they want to do. I rarely ever get to do something which makes me happy, because I sacrifice my happiness for theirs. But I'm beginning to think I should stop doing that. But I don't know, I guess it's a flaw I have that I want to make sure everyone around me is happy before I allow myself to be. I need to work on that... Well, this post doesn't really have a point, like my others. I just wanted to vent and think about things. Side note--I have saved over 8,000 square feet of forest land! Yay! I know it's not much compared to how much needs to be saved, but I'm glad I have saved that much, and I know later I'll save even more.

2003-05-20T22:40:00.000-05:00

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2003-05-20T20:16:00.000-05:00

Bought a gameshark for Gameboy Advance so Alyson and I both have one, and we don't have to wait to use on if the other is using it. Made a website in Technology Literacy. I was finished pretty quickly, I ended up staying a minute after the bell had rung because I was helping Stefanie edit code. I kind of get frustrated with people because it seems everyone around me needs help with HTML. I'm glad to help, but there are just so many. I guess I need to learn to be more patient... I've noticed that Andrew has actually been coming back to class on time for fifth hour when we are supposed to be back from lunch. He used to always be late, but now he is on time, wonder what sparked this change...hmmm... Guess I'll never know. Started watching Black Hawk Down in Western World History today. Orlando! hehe.. Yesterday Alyson bought three booster packs of Yu-Gi-Oh cards. Tomorrow is the Natural quiz, and 7.2 vocab in German. I can't wait 'till block day, I (hopefully) will actually be ale to sit at a table instead of the hallway, still with Brittney and Alyson, but others too. I enjoyed sitting at the lunch table last block, although I feel bad about Jeniffer, but I think if she wasn't so defensive all the time she might be more liked. Just watched American Idle, if Clay doesn't win, I'll probably flip out. I have a feeling that Alyson is becoming even more obsessed with Davey Havok (if that's possible). Carolyn says she won't be home in the afternoon anymore...Yay! I do not like her, I know she's my step-mother, but still, I don't like her.

2003-05-19T20:09:00.000-05:00

I recieved some things from a band called Idle. Supposedly I signed up with their street team. So I received promotional materials. Although I don't even remember signing up with them.... I found out that I have a 99%(exactly) in Communication Arts II. So, I won't have to study too hard for that Final! Which is always good^-^. I had to spend the entire lunch period with Jeniffer.... I was going to sit with Mike and Dmitry, but I couldn't find them. Presented our comics in Com. Arts II as well, I would venture to say that my groups was the funniest, not necessarily the best, but the funniest. Alyson has seemed to have become enrapt with Word Searching.... hope it's just a phase. Kim hasn't responded to me telling me what she thinks of my latest poem.. Hope she does soon. Maybe I can ask her when she comes over, but that's a ways away. I need to input quotes, I think I'll only do a few though.. not much else, today wasn't too eventful.

2003-05-17T11:27:00.000-05:00

I recieved a letter asking me if one of my poems could be published in the U.K., pretty cool, although my family didn't seem to care that much.... I passed out all my promotional material for Dust to Dust. I saw the Matrix Reloaded, it was pretty good.Some of it I didn't care for, but, all in all it was pretty good. Yesterday was the first time in a while that I sat at a table for lunch. Brittney, Alyson, and I usually go to the hallway, then Kyle comes, then Jeniffer. We have fun, but it was much better sitting at the table, because Jeniffer was in the hallway. So we didn't have to pretend we liked her. I found out what my schedule for next year will be. Although I don't remember what order I have for all the classes. I only know because I went to see Mrs. Knowles because I was having some trouble. She then asked what the school could do to help Alyson and I grow. She then looked at my schedule, and fiddled around with it and confirmed my schedule. So, even though I signed up for writer's workshop, I think I'll have to take it my Senior year because the only class period that was available was third hour and that is the only hour German II takes place. So I opted to take German II, so I could have two years of German, to help with College.

2003-05-10T21:25:00.000-05:00

All the games we bought seem to suck. I was accepted to be a street team member for Dust to Dust. I have posted messages to help promote them. I recieved some things to promote them. I will hand them out to people who I think might like them. I bought two CD's, Finch and Trust Company. My sister bought two also. Both of AFI's, which were at blockbuster, "The Art of Drowning" and "Sing the Sorrow". She thinks they are great, but I say they are okay, I know better bands. When we recieved our yearbooks, I asked Andrew Dailey to sign my book and he wrote a rhyme. I think he did a pretty good job for just writing it on the spot. I am impressed. I just wish I could write that well without inspiration... Mike thanked me, yet again, for giving him my Yu-Gi-oh cards. I don't think it's that big of a deal, but whatever. Brittney and Sarah also signed it. I didn't get near as many signatures this year as I did last year... But Alyson's attitude was bringing me down, and I didn't want to get signatures and her not. But I did get Dimitry and Mike to sign it. I just wish she would realize that people did like her. But she seems convinced that no one does. I don't understand, she's been on dates and I haven't, and she truly thinks that? And I still asked people to sign my yearbook. *sigh* oh well, I can't force her to realize that people do like her. I wish I had a guy who liked me, but I never get the feeling that a guy does. And yet, Alyson seems to have quite a few guys who seem to like her. I just don't understand. I wish someone could explain it. But no one has, you know, if it's because I have this huge flaw I don't know about and they avoid that, I wish they wouldn't. I would like to know the truth, even if it's negative. All I want is to understand.

2003-05-04T10:33:00.000-05:00

The games we bought seem to be okay. So far KingsField: The Ancient City is the best. But I have't tried out the PC game yet. So I'll have to wait and see...

2003-05-03T19:56:00.000-05:00

Bought three new games, two Playstation2, one PC, and the other, Gameboy Advance. Siege of Avalon was the PC game and Kings Field: The Ancient's City and Godai were the Playstation 2 games. The Gameboy Advance game was Golden Sun: The Lost Age. Today has been okay. Right now I am watching Rat Race. Yesterday I went to see Xmen 2 it was pretty good. I hope the games we got are at least somewhat good. I actually had an exercise partner today. But we just went back and forth speed walking in the backyard porch, but at least it was something. I can't wait until school ends. We also bought some beads to make bracelets. Caroline picked us up Friday, argh, but at least we went straight to Mom's. Looked for codes for the games found some for all but the PC game, the only code for it was invincible mage, which mean you can only be invincible if you choose to be a mage, any other character, and you're on your own.

2003-04-30T20:05:00.000-05:00

I talked to Frau Hargadine about my sister being in my fourth hour because she's not going on a field trip which is tomorrow and it's during fourth hour. Going to make up my Earth Science test tomorrow during class. I hope I do okay on it. Bus driver was late in picking us up. Oh well. I am starting to think I shouldn't talk to other fans of bands I like. They either seem to have a cussing problem or are just mean. I just don't get along with those type of people. Today was the first time I drove in really heavy traffic. There's supposed to be a comedy nite tonight. I was going to go. But it's too late. It started at 7:00 and it's 8:03. So much for going. Oh well. This week, I just feel I haven't been in my groove, like I haven't been myself lately, I don't feel right. Maybe this will all pass.... hopefully.

2003-04-29T20:40:00.000-05:00

Finally recieved Taproot gear to hand out, but it's a year late! Signed up with American Hi-Fi's street team. Also joined Marcato's forum. I'm the 33rd member. Glad I'm not like 100, or I'd feel like I was a bit late. I'm going to try to spread the word about Marcato as much as I can even though I haven't seen a street team for them. I think they're awesome! I also applied to Dust to Dust's street team. I hope I am accepted. If not, I'll still try to spread the word.

2003-04-27T21:31:00.000-05:00

I signed up with Streetteam.com and I hope to join Dust to Dust's Streetteam. I want to help spread the word about them as much as I can. Today wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I also registered with Dust to Dust's Forum. I hope I can help a great deal.

2003-04-27T10:11:00.000-05:00

I can't find a good picture of David Walsh from The Exies. But maybe if I wait, it will be easier to find one. I just have to be patient. Going to go to The Clay Cafe in the Great Mall of the Great Plains to paint some things. *Sigh* I have a feeling today isn't going to be that fun like yesterday was......

2003-04-26T23:23:00.000-05:00

Yet again updated my picture page... It turned out we went to see Anger Management at 3:40. So we left earlier than I planned. That's why I don't like panning. Just take things as they come at that moment is what I say. But I'm sure others would disagree with me. I edited my hero paper for Com. Arts. I know I'm going to edit it even more when Mr. Smithyman hands our papers back. It seems Alyson has posted even more pictures..argghh! She doesn't need them, just a couple would do it. Tomorrow I'll start on the rest of my homework. I showed Kim a picture of Viggo that I found with him as Aragorn, she kinda went crazy I think. But she liked it... just a bit too much though.

2003-04-26T13:02:00.000-05:00

Posted some more pictures. Going to finally go see Anger Management at 5:00. Tomorrow I'll probably start on my homework. I don't feel like doing it today. Not much has happened. I played the Sims and killed two people by drowning them. I did it on purpose because I didn't care for them, of course, I wouldn't do that in real life. my sister seems to be really obsessed with Elijah and Norman. I mean come on, I like Orladno and all, but I don't post every pic. I find of him, just a couple. And I though I was obsessive, but compared to her, I am definitely not. But I guess that's good, good for me anyway. I hope to get Linkin Park's new CD, Meteora, along with a new CD holder, both of mine are filled! There are actually a lot of CD's I want, but I would be typing about 20 different names if not more, and I don't feel like doing that.

2003-04-25T23:08:00.000-05:00

I just joined Hoobastank's online streetteam, but I wish I had known about them sooner so I could do more. Oh well, I joined at least^-^ I posted more pics of celebs I either admire or think are cute (or both!). I hope tomorrow is less stressful than today. Yesterday was stress free. At my mother's work, I met this guy named Alex. He made me forget about Brandon, I never thought that would happen!